Living Now and Saving for Later

I seek silence. Silence, in principle; in essence, we will always experience sounds so long as we have ears to hear. So, choosing the sounds we go about listening to particular voices, songs of despair and betrayal or egomaniac portrayals of narcissistic, ego-based driven, impulsive and automatic. Rarely do we listen to the sounds of nature, a waterfall, the rain. We don’t make too much space for ourselves. And now, this very moment, is all you ever have.
We all do the same thing over and over, and if we do it good enough and there is an audience for it, we shall never go hungry. Putting some away, enjoying some now, and most of it invest in a not so far away story tale. Not twenty years, or even ten away. In a matter of months, I will amass more than I’ve had at one time. In other words, I want to save ten thousand dollars in the course of six months.
If we can to some degree choose the noise or the music in our lives, or at least we should, and we make a decent living and are not squandering all of it away. Some, yes, inevitably. I live in the now just as much as the next guy, but I also know I want to retire well before I am fifty, live comfortably and not necessarily of a luxuriou kind. It is because that I want to live in the now that I don’t spend it all at once, and save enough to reach my goal. I chose to retire in my native land, buy a cool ass condominium, and have enough left not to worry about starvation at least for the next ten years.
See, if I save just enough to buy an apartment here in the States, there will always be other expenses and that spiritual lack, that rush of life that never ends. Say I find a really good deal and buy a condominium for about two hundred thousand dollars (think of it as one hundred of one-hundred dollar bills, and suddenly it doesn’t seem as much), and then I have this lifestyle here that costs around sixty thousand dollars a year, then pay some twenty thousand for child support. With 50.000 dollars, I can buy a pretty decent property. There I have family and I can always travel back and forth from time to time; I include in the retirement budget two thousand dollars for vacation a year outside the country. I am a citizen of the United States of America. Say I go once to New York and then once to Miami, I will have money saved in bank accounts in the country. I plan to retire for ten years, and live without a worry in the world for money, dedicate myself to writing and have fun venturing out and living life to the fullest. No need to work. No need to wake up early, unless it is something extra on the side, a part-timer position. Maybe turtor people on English, that I can manage. And if I can make a living doing what I love most, which is, aside from writing, living… well, then the more power to me!


In four years, when things come to fruition, I will be retired. I will pay for my child as well. And I will see him often and bring him with me, too. These are things I already do: I put away one third of what I earn and I pay my debts promptly and always work when there is work. I’ve spent some time alone, and I continue to do so. I want to invest and if so, I must sacrifice certain things. Of all things, relationships cost the most, both e’s: emotions, economy, there’s really no division, one affects the other, and if we can’t put a hold on our emotions, then we must not kid ourselves: glory will belong to the one that puts the work in. Let’s kill ourselves now, and enjoy a little now as well, and live modestly, but without all needs met and a few luxuries.