Toys You Get To Play With

Every little detail has to be paid importance. Your presence should create a magical spell. Ignore those who resist you. These people won’t have much pleasure to give, if they refuse to receive your gift, make them earn it. Time is precious: follow promising prospects, moment to moment, enjoy the most precious moment of all: now. Of course, you need to take your time and don’t rush in. Some relationships will flourih from a moment to the next and just end in that same fashion, just as quickly as it had began. We shouldn't punish ourselves for what we want; we should man up to it. Let's take what's ours.
Don’t settle for less; always aim for more, be selective, take things slow. At least for the first few moments, if your act is enacted properly, these will seem like an eternity. Initially, give them and yourself space to breath, relax in their presence, let them have a chance to see you. When they do notice you, first thing they’ll scan for is your level of confidence. Are you comfortable in your own skin? Do they have an impact on you way before there is an interaction between the two of you? Is he only after “ass”? Your demeanor, and not your words, will quiet their doubts, will create an aura of mystery and give rise to curiosity. And now, still hold on to your guns. In her presence, you are to be as comfortable as usual. Practice in private, take time to visualize the moments you daily face and rehearse them well before you execute them in the real world. Look, there really isn’t any world outside the mental realm. We are psychological creatures, not logical, respond to stimuli more or less the same as animals... except we get to later look back and somehow rationalize our actions. Insecurities and dreams, our self-image will show its face. Character is something you build, like muscles. You don't have to be the rudest, but you show plenty of kindness. Give always a little more of yourself, anyway you can. It is not a gift unless you let others enjoy it. Think of your gifts as toys you get to play with.

Flesh Mates

A bad smell is a way of detecting with our sense of smell something decaying. If we spray something slightly toxic around, it may not have the same effect if you were to ingest or drink such waste. It would make you sick. Other elements some of us may be more susceptible than others. But what is repealing like a bad breath, or stinking feet, or eat more than your share. And rarely, if anything, make the slightest effort to exercise. The slightest efforts are not always enough; perhaps invest a bit more of yourself. You can give yourself the gift of keeping physically active and fit. Our bodies reflect ourselves and, to some extent, our habits. Our bodies tell a story as to how we see ourselves, how much we dedicate to cultivate our physic, and no one can be truly happy with too sedentary an existence. Aristotle saw in movement, life!
Our words shouldn’t invite more than an actual challenge. Challenge yourself to be a leanner, meaner self. Being fit is a reflection of your dedication; it speaks highly of you. And it’s not like you have to be perfect, but you do have to be a perfectionist, to an extent.
I spoke of emotional fidelity. And sexual fidelity as well. Of course, we can all start openly, enjoy ourselves and not necessarily fall in love. But if a relationship is to thrive, in the long run it makes sense to want to be unique. It doesn’t mean you’re missing out. Just because you can't smell, it doesn't mean it's not rotten, and why let something rot? Best to lay it on the ground, say your goodbyes and bury it. Don't linger for long, and if you must, then at least have something on the side to look forward to.
You ought to have lived your life, and always continue to do so by having something going for yourself aside your partnership with another, because if you’re really the shallow type expect a very lonely existence and a lot of fun way before your good looks go to waste. Age affects us all. The clock is ticking, and for years now I try to slow down my interior monologue, and I listen and act rather than react, be kind and open to new things, as if to absorb the moment, live completely immersed in the present.
Of course, the important thing in a relationship shouldn’t be sex. But just the same, sex is just as important a foundation of a healthy communion between flesh mates as any other, and quite frankly I could not conceive of a relationship being complete without the sexual factor weighing in on this lovely equation of things. It'd be like orchestrating the most beautiful sound only to fall on deaf ears. That said, though, the reason we stick to only one partner is not just because it is the most noble thing. We may want to go on a fucking spree and get back home in time for supper every now and then. But that is not how we roll. And if we’re balanced individuals, it is actually something we should crave; settling emotionally gives you a platform to dedicate more time to build and create, and that makes a whole lot of sense.

Just blog it

Watching that silly movie "Going the Distance" by accident, because I was cleaning up and that was what my mind said it was, the reason is, "you're doing girly things, like cleaning up right now, and then there's a romantic background and no love in the horizon and that's what you get". But then you start to wonder if, possibly, in some other dimension, actually, maybe, perhaps, all of a sudden... this thing that they call "love" is actually worth a try. I guess I just wasn't cut out for it. Going on dates, I mean, why? You end up paying dearly for it, and not that that matters now that money is of not a worry, since I traded love for commitment and work, I've had tons of material toys, wild nights out, met amazing people, made friends everywhere... but this love thing, the way it is meant to be, it is just like a part time with no pay on the side, or an addiction that you've grown out of, or like an illness that you just have been immune to for only so long. I better shed this skin, get out and do what I know best: party, for even my day off, yes the only day off, is part of Tuesday and Wednesday, and I better make the most of it before it is back to work. No harm in that. I was gonna tweet this shit but tweeter is far more logical than facebook and it has no space mambo-jumbo extra curricular, intangible matter, like this hypothetical, skeptical theme that they miscall "romantic love". Falling in love is just way too easy... it's the falling out of it that I don't have time for.

Good People

Good people is like the glue that binds together this world falling apart. With every good deed, they infuse life with a charge of light that brightens the darkness under which we live. Yes, we live in a dark age of our own.
What? You think people in the Middle Ages envisioned themselves as living in a time of darkness? To them, like to oh so many today, it was about God's moody ways.
Rightfully, it isn’t quite as bad as it used to be, but again some of that we owe to good people, a dash of genius here or there, and a lot of patience and perseverance. Patience is not passive; it’s not about sitting and wishing for things to materialize out of nothing. That is just a fable. And even fables, take effort and consume vital time. Time you can’t do without; indulge often and work hard. Don’t waste the precious days, if not doing what matters to you most. While reaping the rewards, remember to plant the seed anew, you will sow what you cultivate, water and nurture to fruition. And when the time comes around, don’t hesitate to fully enjoy the fruits of your labor.
Good things, like good people, take time. It takes effort, if you want to be in shape, lead a healthy and prosperous life, it takes strategic planning and carrying it through. It takes character, what we call “goals” are not achieved without balls. Calm balls, balls of masculine essence, of purpose and direction, of sacrifice. Life isn't fruity; it isn't too sour either... At least to those of us who reside in the Middle Path. We crave center, the least sweet so that we don't grow coy, and quietude. We reside in our own reality, we celebrate others handsomely and often, and we protect our family.

Angry Little People

Certain boss walks around tall like a proud figurine, catering to the powerful with a hands-on managerial style, imposing her rule on those working under. No acquaintance in common has said anything positive about her. They may not agree with her, but they fear her.
And so, they oblige, even if they think her plan is wrong. Of course, some have tried to reason with her, but she won't be pushed around... her Napoleon complex, I guess.
I honestly don't know how other supervisors fear such poor managerial skills; whenever she gets in my face, melodramatically gesticulating jaws, I take a step back to reassert myself, adopt serene but leveled stance, listen more and talk a lot less, try to be as assertive as I can only be. The angrier she gets, the more centered I come. However, other people just stay out of her way, if they don't have to deal with her. And if they can be of service, she extends her full self, as it should be. But more often, we can tell people better by seeing how they treat those under them. You can't show compassion, kindness and straightforwardness if you, yourself, are cheap and crooked, prone to unpredictable bouts of anger.
And so, they just do as she says. And she says a lot of things, and demands much more.
Of course, the problem is not in disciplining your subjects so much as in how that discipline is administered. The healthy way to deal with problems is with a calm and firm mind; we can't bring a positive outcome in an overactive state of mind. In layman's words, you shouldn't lose your head if you want to keep control of things. And it makes sense, of course, that from time to time we get to be angry and say things we may later regret. But she regrets nothing, and she seems prone to being pissed off in any moment now. Being around her is like being around a ticking bomb, that you just don't know when is going to go off.
She won't even take you aside to discipline you. The hallway is good enough a place, so that everyone gets a taste of her toughness. Except she is only tough on those who fear her; she doesn't treat everyone under her command the same. She plays favorites, by promoting people who only got to the job the other day, for instance. She doesn't go as hard on something graver, like one of her subjects' allowing access into the building without the required badge; she knows, even though this is one of the employees, he is also very valuable an asset: the guy is gifted in sociability, easily the most recognizable face in the whole campus after the CEO, and the client just loves him. Still, though, this sort of dignity she should extend to the rest of the crew as well, no double-standards. Surely, she'd probably take him aside and firmly but calmly explain to him that is not the right procedure, to follow the rules by which we all oblige. Or maybe she should just stop complaining for every little thing, getting mixed in every whim, making others feel just how unpleasant she can be. What a lack of refinement and taste in someone otherwise sharp and capable.
We should try to settle ourselves first and come back around heated situations later.

Second person in the list is the littlest of them all. (I suppose, by now, you get that is not physically "little people" I'm talking about. Not all little galls are made the same and even though size matters, here, quite simply put, that is not the issue.)
It is rumored that Napoleon would send the tallest soldiers off on the most dangerous missions. Once this guy sent me on an errand, only to have my head delivered on a platter. He laid his web of lies in front of me, and I fell for it (metaphorically speaking, that is).
No matter how well and decent you were with this guy, he just has more and more bitterness coming your way. He cries like a crocodile, smiles like a hyena, in his chameleon skin. I've downplayed some mistakes he has made and this guy can be laughing and joking with you one minute, and literally stabbing you in the back next. Anger has no place in a healthy heart, and his not only must withstand the whims of his angst but also his horrible diet. Under the stress he works under, taking also into consideration his age, I don't think he'll last more than five years.
And so this little person comes and waits until you turn your back, and goes to the other little person and like the tiny people they are, they get at it. I wonder if we could find him a toy house and have them live like a pair of small couples. There used to be a very cruel funny-man a few years ago that used to call him King Kong's abortion. I mean, some people just give off the sensation that whenever you swim in their waters, you're surrounded by sharks. As if you suddenly found yourself deep into the woods, surrounded by a pack of wolves. No matter how much you want to try, you just can't trust a wolf or befriend a shark.

Living Now and Saving for Later

I seek silence. Silence, in principle; in essence, we will always experience sounds so long as we have ears to hear. So, choosing the sounds we go about listening to particular voices, songs of despair and betrayal or egomaniac portrayals of narcissistic, ego-based driven, impulsive and automatic. Rarely do we listen to the sounds of nature, a waterfall, the rain. We don’t make too much space for ourselves. And now, this very moment, is all you ever have.
We all do the same thing over and over, and if we do it good enough and there is an audience for it, we shall never go hungry. Putting some away, enjoying some now, and most of it invest in a not so far away story tale. Not twenty years, or even ten away. In a matter of months, I will amass more than I’ve had at one time. In other words, I want to save ten thousand dollars in the course of six months.
If we can to some degree choose the noise or the music in our lives, or at least we should, and we make a decent living and are not squandering all of it away. Some, yes, inevitably. I live in the now just as much as the next guy, but I also know I want to retire well before I am fifty, live comfortably and not necessarily of a luxuriou kind. It is because that I want to live in the now that I don’t spend it all at once, and save enough to reach my goal. I chose to retire in my native land, buy a cool ass condominium, and have enough left not to worry about starvation at least for the next ten years.
See, if I save just enough to buy an apartment here in the States, there will always be other expenses and that spiritual lack, that rush of life that never ends. Say I find a really good deal and buy a condominium for about two hundred thousand dollars (think of it as one hundred of one-hundred dollar bills, and suddenly it doesn’t seem as much), and then I have this lifestyle here that costs around sixty thousand dollars a year, then pay some twenty thousand for child support. With 50.000 dollars, I can buy a pretty decent property. There I have family and I can always travel back and forth from time to time; I include in the retirement budget two thousand dollars for vacation a year outside the country. I am a citizen of the United States of America. Say I go once to New York and then once to Miami, I will have money saved in bank accounts in the country. I plan to retire for ten years, and live without a worry in the world for money, dedicate myself to writing and have fun venturing out and living life to the fullest. No need to work. No need to wake up early, unless it is something extra on the side, a part-timer position. Maybe turtor people on English, that I can manage. And if I can make a living doing what I love most, which is, aside from writing, living… well, then the more power to me!


In four years, when things come to fruition, I will be retired. I will pay for my child as well. And I will see him often and bring him with me, too. These are things I already do: I put away one third of what I earn and I pay my debts promptly and always work when there is work. I’ve spent some time alone, and I continue to do so. I want to invest and if so, I must sacrifice certain things. Of all things, relationships cost the most, both e’s: emotions, economy, there’s really no division, one affects the other, and if we can’t put a hold on our emotions, then we must not kid ourselves: glory will belong to the one that puts the work in. Let’s kill ourselves now, and enjoy a little now as well, and live modestly, but without all needs met and a few luxuries.

Republican Bunch

I may not share most of the Republican Party's point of view, but I admire how dirty their tactics are at times, how they'd almost stop at nothing to get their way. They know themselves as the smaller guy, and their fight has to be dirty if it's to thrive. It's not what they stand for but how they stand up and bitterly, fiercely fight back. After all the failed policies, they always come back with a vengeance. No shame, just proud in carrying out their not so-much egalitarian agenda.
But of course it's only to be expected that as a large nation we are going to have disagreements. After all, the Founding Fathers went to great lengths in order to ensure that change was gradual; except, the world in which we live isn't, as change is a never ending process. You can't choose not to change; change is always a constant, whether you decide to take part or not. To me, if you choose not to... you're still choosing. And as a nation, we may think ourselves part of what eventually happens. That is, sometimes, the case. However, most of the time, a nation (even ours) is governed by the very few.
The events we see taking place in Egypt, are an example of civil disobedience bringing about the downfall of a nearly thirty-year old rule. The way I see it, Mubarak has still a lot of sway but never again the one he once enjoyed among his people.
But going back to the Republican front, isn't it amazing how -metaphorically speaking -the Republicans as a small mob form a tight bunch that halt the advance of a larger, less compact body (sort of like in the movie 300). It is known that one of the reasons why the Spaniards were so successful in their conquests is that they were out to kill you, unlike ritualistic and superstitious societies like that of the Aztecs that required an enemy warrior be brought and sacrifice in front of everyone. They wanted to capture you alive, as it was customary. You can clearly see how a drastically smaller number of people conquered and enslaved a vast and warrior-like empire.
The Republicans come to mind again. They sure are a tenacious little fuck. Say, if we were to be merciless with them and adopt their aggressive tactics, maybe we will eradicate their ideologies or decimate their analogical numbers, drive them off from the face of the earth! I have quite a few good Republican friends that I am ready to sacrifice when the revolution comes around.
Ah, but even though we disagree, I honestly admire their passion. Take their agenda, for instance; whatever their position, they hold it with a 100% ratio of unilateral agreement. That, in and of itself, is a perfect example of tyranny. Even among democrats, there are disagreements. As humans, we have disagreements with our friends and family, even with our pets, neighbors and ourselves. Specially, with... ourselves! It is what constitutes part of a healthy democracy: having always little, crazy radical and marginal subject. But with the Republican Party that subject is every one of their subjects, forming one unanimous and unequivocal voice.

The Case for Monogamy

The case for monogamy is simple. Deep down inside, the other person is to reflect my own self and as such, if it is through the eyes of a solid foundation, a team, a courageous half, as good-looking and smart as we can possibly find, and, just like us, special and unique. If we are to value ourselves over others, in the long run nothing will withstand the test of time. Because we love ourselves balancedly, or should anyway, then it only makes sense that we look forward being reflected on a being that also values us. And in order for them to value you, you must cast a value on them. How would you feel if your significant other were to betray or lie to you. Would you like it? If the feeling is something that bothers you, then don’t go on. Take a step back: every moment you take the wrong step, you’re not only straying away from your purpose; you’re also losing control over the course of your life. If you are to gamble with what you find most important to you, then be prepared to pay the price.
Of course, relationships can exist where the norm is not always the case. And even those that are within the norm also tend to differ from one another. Every single one of us is immersed in a unique experience, and I am not to tell you that “monogamy” is superior to any other type of union. Whatever works for you, continue doing; chances are you know what you like and, what’s more importantly, know how to get it. If it works, chances are too that you’re working on it. Constantly improving, adapting, learning, giving, demanding, is the only way a measure of substance and meaning can be attached to this life.
Monogy works in many ways. It is not easy, of course; nothing of great significance comes out of laziness and stagnation. Of course, monogamous people go wrong, and face daily the “temptations”. It’s not easy being monogamous; just like is not easy having a great body. It takes discipline, hard work and a plan of action to be carried out impeccably. Monogamy brings up the best of all posible selves. Integrity is something many can boast of but more than a handful who have mastered their urges, the natural instincs, and know how to be animal with his/her insatiable lover. Yes, if a sexual life is of importance to us, we shouldn’t do without it. Fidelity comes oh so much easier when we fuck regularly. And by “regular”, I mean at least four times a week. I’ve gone months in which there is not a single day that passes by that I don’t. And just like that, too, there have been many months where I just lay back and stay away from the entire world. And it’s like fasting, I do without the things I find more lustful of, as a way of raw discipline which grounds my baser motives and brings out the most meaningful me. For as long as it lasts, I want to cherish and enjoy time together with very firm feet on the ground. Like states belonging to a union, ours survives better simply because we don’t depend on one another. We are two strong, individual and considerate beings who have come together. So the world must be ready, because nothing will be able to stop us for as long as this adventure is on. We play and do not hurt intentionally. We fight and make up sex. It’s all part of the same recipe, and monogamy may not be the remedy but it sure can cure you of that awful ailment termed loneliness.