Tonight I'm out

Tonight I’ll finally awake from my stupor and venture out. It’s a splendid night weather-wise, and the crowds as usual are storming the streets, the levels of testosterone are surging through my veins and I need to find relief to this ailment. Throughout the day, I felt sluggish and a nonstop stream of toxic ideas were circling in my mind. What with the abetment of resolution that normally takes over any negative agenda, I will step out of this skin and flow. Picture our moods like currents of water that emanate from our deepest desires: the one we are and the one we are becoming, and still the one we aspire to be, all come into conflict, so you listen for a while to the voices of doom, the naysayers. But it’s easy to blame the people in our lives, the circumstances we find ourselves under, the whether, etc. If we make an attempt to brake the rhythm to which we dance, and reinvent our way of dealing with pain and misfortune, by eliminating personal nuances and promoting still more healthy behaviors, then the balance will be in our favor. True, at times, we can’t help but to feel miserable. But that only should be momentarily. I tend to look for reasons beyond my psychological make-up, and for instance wonder if I ate something that might have had a bad effect on me. If I did, I would drink plenty of water, get a respite from toxic input, and find some use to the time I have. I think of a project in which to immerse myself. Go out. Try thinking the same thing on a completely different place, and your perspective might very well shift. Like currents, we tend to see the waves and rally against the idea of turbulent cycles. But if we remain calm for long enough, then the waters will settle and will become peaceful again. Then again you could just dance the night away with a gorgeous girl I haven't yet met. We'll see.