It's time I commit to paper that the lack of closure can ultimately spell our doom. We do communicate indirectly through social media outlets such as Facebook and Instagram, but I do not post much, in fact very little as of late. Nor have I gone liking other people's stuff. Such times we live. It's actually a world within a world, although it can never replace actual contact, it offers a degree of comfort and connection between peers. Recently I bought myself a smartphone, like two days ago, and I already feel the difference. You're there and then, rather than where you actually are. Your friends, your family, their interests and photos, it really is a good subterfuge. I enjoy people and I enjoy my friends, I am most familiar among strangers. As of late, I've been sort of couch potato, even though I put work around the place and manage to exercise from time to time, slowly building into a habit. I've reduced the amount of cigarettes, aim at quitting like I did before cold turkey. 

Oh of course we miss those we leave behind, but we must outgrow our emotional dependence on them, see how long can we go before we show our face. I enjoy seeing them on Saturdays when I get back late from work. Mostly though I've always been a lonely hunter. I enjoy my existence more by limiting the amount of human interaction. Even though my mom is staying with me for the time being, I am ready to move on to better things, these just take time and now I am getting back in shape, going for the FSD license, renew my driving license, seeing Julian, maybe leasing a car, getting a bigger apartment. No time for romance, I tell myself.

I don't spend a lot when I go out and I've done so locally. Twenty dollars: four beers (one buy-back, at no charge), three at $4 each, but what I usually do is I have a couple of screwdrivers at home with my music and smokes, and then I head over there, really late, almost closing time. The thing is, I'd rather stay home and watch stuff on Roku, stream to my TV through chromecast, or blast my music. I guess I am self-reliant, but I'm also