Micellaneous

Fiction is hard work. I tend to write and publish this journal with ease, and already get feedback, communicate some formal thoughts and release myself at times. I chronicle the transcendence I am undertaking. I witness and engage in this phenomenon we call life. Whatever it is the fuck you want to call it. I see that the writer who thinks more of his audience’s response to his words often wears a mask at some level. It’s crucial to keep the reader in mind, not take a sudden avenue that happens to occupy our present minds, and keep a paced and well thought-out exposition of ideas. There are, of course, distractions around. Privacy seldom abounds. Of course, afternoons full of rain may sound too cliché, and yet they do exert their charm. Plenty of coffee, music aloud (Coldplay’s A Rush of Blood to the Head; Muse’s Origin of Symmetry; Maroon 5’s Songs about Jane, and many others along that sweet upbeat rock line descendent from Radiohead) people I know online (including nanoseconds ago my dear sister from Colombia), the whole apartment to yourself. I have written a list of goals that I want to achieve in the next six to nine months. I have spoken to my mother and sister in Colombia more regularly. I will have worked at least ten hours overtime so far this week. (By the way, I threw to the musical mix some Spanish songs from Buenavista Social Club, Bacilos, etc). Also, I sent a poem of mine to another contest online, and solicited information. I haven’t ventured out as I would have probably written favorably about it. But I have time to simply indulge. Actually, I make time for it. Monday mornings are dreaded by so many others but they are for now my only subterfuge of solitude. When I have time to be spent with whomever it is I can spend it with, and most of my favorite people is naturally entangled with their routines, I enjoy amply my own company. Sure, we take familiar routes, and find similar results.






Oscar says:
you should check it out, he's very good
Boris says:
You do know there was an australian anthropologist by the name of Elliot Smith.
Boris says:
Don't you?
Oscar says:
i gotta let you go for now, i have a meeting in 5 minutes, should be back in 30 mins. if you're still around
Boris says:
I am kind of inclined towards science than art.
Boris says:
Ok.
Boris says:
Later.
Oscar says:
boris
Boris says:
dime
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oscar
Oscar says:
boris suena mas intelectual
Oscar says:
damian
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I know.
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Boris Amar
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is hell of a writer's name.
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Thank you for your condescension.
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Kidding!
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Mondays I love.
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I wake up to an apartment all to myself.
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I have a blast.
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Coffee.
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Lots of coffee.
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Music.
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Semi-loud music.
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Writing.
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I'm cooking words.
Oscar says:
take that message off, it's confusing'
Simply indulge says:
that's much better.
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this one i like best.
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It's just not as hedonistic.
Oscar says:
it's not as long
Oscar says:
chatting with anybody in particular?
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No,
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writing that's all.
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Actually, I make time for it. Mondays mornings are dreaded by so many others but they are for now my only subterfuge of solitude. When I have time to be spent with whomever it is I can spend it with, and most of my favorite people is naturally tied to their routines, I enjoy amply my own company
Oscar says:
so you like mondays
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I don't say that.
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careful now.
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I say that WE make our happy TIME
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It could very well be on Monday.
Oscar says:
oh
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Listen to Muse's "Orgin of Symmetry", the song called "Feeling Good"
Oscar says:
you remember carolina?
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Yeah.
Oscar says:
you ever talked to her again?
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I am not sure as to which Carolina you're reffering.
Oscar says:
the fat one
Oscar says:
really smart girl
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No.
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But I have met another Carolina.
Oscar says:
but you remember her
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She was the stunningly beauty queen with insecurities that I regarded as natural given her physical attributes.
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Dating a guy twenty years older than her.
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She also liked to be dependent.
Oscar says:
who was this
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A Carolina surprisingly I met in Terra two years ago.
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A year ago, we ended up dating.
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When Isabel and I broke up
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When Isabel found me con una puertorricura que tenia complejo de fea
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rubia delgada nalgoncita de ojos azules
Oscar says:
y esa era carolina?
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no
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esa era kathelyn
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aunque ya conocia a carolina hace un año
Oscar says:
la de ojos azules
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kathelyn
Oscar says:
era kathelyn
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la de azules
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si
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puertoriqueña
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r
Oscar says:
continua'
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Isabel took off work and hided in the bedroom.
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I brought the puertorican home.
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I had candles and wine.
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The way I saw it was it was cheaper than going to the movies.
Oscar says:
isabel was hiding in the bedroom
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Yes.
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In the closet.
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In the bedroom.
Oscar says:
this is hysterical
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Yes, quite so.
Oscar says:
continue
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I put music, I pour wine, I toss with intertwiching arms.
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We are dancing and heart pounding stormed Isabel out of the bedroom.
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Into the living room.
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Do you think I said it all?
Oscar says:
una boricua y una dominicana en una escena de estas, you cant script it any better
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Not even close.
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I am getting better.
Oscar says:
go on, this is too goog
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It's my metamorphosis.
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Well,
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Isabel was beautifully dressed with make up and all.
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I tried to cool her down.
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It was impossible.
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Isabel threw panties I had from Kathelyn in her face
Oscar says:
you should have proposed a threesome
Oscar says:
wher did you have the apnties
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In my bag, the one I take to work.
Hidden in a little compartment within the bag.
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They were dirty.
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I used to smell them at work hiding in the bathroom and write obsene text-messages to whom I called my beautiful whore.
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Anyway.
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Isabel found them.
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Beware of scourned women.
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To top it off, I ran behind Kathelyn.
Oscar says:
continue this is too good
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I was barefooted and followed her two blocks walking on the burning two days old snow that had turned into that frozen slippery ice.
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It was very cold out.
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Not freezing. But cold.
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I went back.
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Isabel was crying.
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There was a moment of pain in my heart when she broke down and like looking to a corner said as if talking to the walls,
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"Yo no me merezco esto. Yo que lucho por tener algo mejor y que me he sacrificado por ti."
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She had told Kathelyn that she had bore my baby in her womb before having a miscarriage not more than three months ago as she rubbed the panties on her face
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I was holding her back even then.
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Anyway.
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I also was horny.
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We men tend to get this way.
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Whenever women are emotional we get aroused.
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Yes?
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I put shoes on and zigzagged her bittered words,
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I put aside all her rencor.
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And closed the door behind her.
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I was able to catch up with Kathelyn who lives only six downhill blocks apart.
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I went inside the building she lives in.
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She lit a cigarrette.
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I convinced her to go for a walk.
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To get away.
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She obliged.
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After everything that happened.
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She left with me.
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If this isn't a testament to women's inclination towards fatality I don't know what is.
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I had money.
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We best of all the worst joints around. A restaurant with dark lights and loud music and we sat in the back, shrouded in shadows, and ordered a couple of drinks.
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We left to a motel.
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All along I remember being glad that I had taken a little bit of pot I had left and placed it in my pocket.
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I thought of smoking it in a cheap motel room with the girl I wanted to be with and a six pack of beers. Isn't that the life?
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But when we got to the motel room, one hundred and twenty six dollars later, I couldn't find the pot.
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I must have dropped it in the car on our way there.
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I told her I'll be back and left to buy pot, in the middle of the night took a cab back to my neighborhood, but couldn't find one single dealer on the desolate frozen streets.
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Kathelyn stayed in the motel room and I feared she might left so I slapped her on her butt and grabbed her hard against me, until she got into the mood.
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Then I left her.
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She was on the phone with her friend.
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Drinking one of the beers.
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I couldn't find anyone.
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No one.
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Who sells pot.
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Then I went back to the apartment and relived the encounter I had had before with Isabel, looked for pot but couldn't find it.
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As I was leaving, I found the guy next door.
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Literally, and unlike me, a full time pot head.
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I asked if he had any to sell.
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I got my pot and went back to the motel room.
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Kathelyn was still there.
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We drank and smoked.
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Then she didn't want to have sex.
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Find, I said.
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We fell asleep.
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A little while later, in the dark, as I was deep into sleep, she awoke and started bitch slap rapping me.
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"You are an asshole, you know,"
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and she ended the whole with
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"And I am leaving"
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Then I lost it.
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I grabbed her by the hair and threw her on bed.
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She tried to get up and I slapped her.
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I grabbed her hands.
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She was scratching me.
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I was on top of her.
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"You're so aggressive" she said.
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And I fucked her.
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Amazing night.
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Eh?